If you know me, you will know that I have always been an optimist. If I don’t see it, I will go out and search for the good, for the light and for the other side of the story. But somewhere along the line, a big chunk of my perspective on life took a massive dip. I couldn’t see clearly. Didn’t quite know how to always believe. Always trust.
And so at the beginning of this year, I found myself trembling as I made the decision to be bold in my declarations over my life.
A month before the year was over, I applied for a program I wholeheartedly wanted to be a part of. I believed and felt as though I needed it to help boost and elevate me into the new year…. I received an email on the 6th of Jan 2020 saying I did not make it into the program. I sat at my desk at the office and felt the tears burn in my eyes. My heart sank. And for a few minutes I was absolutely shattered. If not this program, what more was there for me to look forward to in this new year? Ok I had Business School to look forward to but I wanted more. I wanted to be part of that program in particular. I wanted to have everything that I wanted.
Who knows that there is something incredibly exciting yet equally daunting, about wanting something with your whole heart. You believe, imagine and visualise yourself in the greatness you seek. And somewhere at the back of your mind, you question whether you really want it. You question whether it’s really your season and time to have it. You begin building a house to carry the disappointment. You make room and furnish the part of your house where your fears and failures will live.
It was in the process of building this exquisite mansion to carry and house my failures, disappointments, secret bold prayers and undercover crazy dreams…you know, the ones you barely tell anyone about just in case things don’t quite work out. It was during this time that I made my decision.
The decision to live with OUTRAGEOUS FAITH and SENSELESS BELIEF.
I made the choice to be bold. The choice to be courageous in my resolve for wanting more and living at a higher vibration. A vibration that would call for me to risk having my heart broken, my ego bruised and give the gremlins in my head a platform to say “Told you, you couldn’t do it. Who do you think you are? You are not that brilliant”.
And I guess that’s the whole point of OUTRAGEOUS FAITH & SENSELESS BELIEF…To crack your heart wide open and awaken you to life, dreaming and possibility. To challenge you to place something else in the room saved for fears and failures. To call us to step into a higher version of self. To believe with your whole heart. To stand in sure confidence that things can and will work out. And to know that if they don’t, for one moment, for a season, we dared to believe. Dared to dream. Dared to step and experience wholehearted living in its purest form.
I have made up my mind and there’s no turning back. In every area of my life, I am choosing to move with